I never knew I wanted to be a father, until I became one. These two girls, Lakin and Addah, are funny, silly, and every other word that can be used to describe "whimsical". They are little fairies without the wings. They make me smile, they make me laugh, and every now and then they make me cry. Having never had children of my own, being their stepfather is one of the greatest honors I could ever have hoped for.
It's been a crazy two years. I've gone from lazy single bachelor, who spent my free time drinking and playing X-Box, to responsible father figure and would-be husband. Things aren't always easy. Both Heather and Lakin have been diagnosed with Bipolar I Disorder and Generalized Anxiety. I was diagnosed many years ago with Major Depression and Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD). A streak of Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) runs through Addah as well. In short, it's a madhouse at times, but we have a lot of love and share a lot of hugs, and we've all learned a lot of patience.
Lakin recently tried out for chorus, something her mother and I never expected her to do. She has a beautiful voice but with her anxiety issues, I was surprised that she would be willing to get up in front of her class and audition. She came home today to tell us that she was chosen for 4th and 5th grade chorus, and was very excited, but not in the manic kind of way we have come to expect. It was refreshing and gives us hope, especially after a particularly trying summer. It's amazing to see flowers bloom like this.
These two girls are my cherubs, my sweethearts, and I wouldn't trade them for the world... I'm so fortunate to have them, as well as my darling Heather, in my life.